Desperately Seeking... Normal

Woot!!

This one is photographing local weddings for a national company.  

How stoked am I?!  :)  

Now, if I can get just one more company to sign me to help with the financial situation, this will be so awesome…

Yay!  :)

I will be photographing newborns in the hospital.  It’s very part-time for now, but sounds like there will be a chance it will become more steady as time goes on….

1.)  I’m supposed to be packing right now.  It’s not working.  I hate packing so, so much.  I’m sure this will not be the last you guys will hear of this.

2.) Had another phone interview today for a photography company, and am meeting the phone interviewer from last week in-person tomorrow.  Things may actually be falling into place!  We’ll see.  

3.) While I am super thankful for the interviews, it would be hella easier to get my packing done if I only had to worry about one anxiety-producing activity at a time.

…I really hate packing… 

Know what I like?  Procrastinating.

Yesterday was a really good day.  Had a phone interview with a photography company that photographs newborns in hospitals and does family life photography.  I think it went pretty well.  She complimented me on my writing skills, said I had a great resume, and told me I definitely have an eye for photography.  She’s supposed to email me with some dates so we can meet in person.

I also had another photography company contact me and let me know that I did not yet have enough experience to work for them, but the lady who emailed me told me I had a really nice eye for photography, and that if she needs a 2nd shooter she may call me.  

So, apparently I don’t suck.  

Forward to today.  I was supposed to have another phone interview for a wedding photography company at 10am.  They never called.  At 11am, I emailed them.  Still haven’t heard back.  Emailed the lady from the first phone interview about dates for meeting up.  Still haven’t heard back from her either.

I get a text in the afternoon from an ex-coworker informing me that my ex-boss wasn’t at work today….which was awesome because today was the day I was supposed to go clean out my desk and get my personal things.  Fortunately, that one actually worked out for the best in that my co-worker packed up all my stuff for me, and we’re meeting for lunch tomorrow.  So, now I don’t have to go back to the building and deal with any emotions being there may bring up.  

Went to the doctor this afternoon.  My blood pressure was high.  I told the nurse that didn’t surprise me.  I’m one giant stress ball from all the worries about being unemployed, and having to pack.

I have to pack because I’m moving in with the boyfriend.  What?!  I am mostly super-stoked about this… 

Words of wisdom, anyone?  :o)

…I’m no longer employed.

On the one hand, I’m totally relieved to not be working there anymore and for it to not have to be my decision… because I don’t quit easily when it comes to work, even when it’s for the best.

On the other hand, I feel like a total and utter failure, and feel so stupid that I put myself in the position to have this happen.  (Hard on myself, much?) 

It’s hard to be excited about the possibilities this holds when I’m stuck feeling like I don’t deserve to be happy…

Life.  Ugh.

So, I deleted my personal Facebook page for some personal reasons.  I don’t really miss it that much.  I may reactivate it someday… but with a much smaller friends list.

In the meantime, I made a Facbook page for my photography.  Just trying to get the word out…  Check it out if you’d like!  And like it!  And suggest it to others…specifically around the Michigan area…  ;o)

facebook.com/ForThisMomentPhotography

…good-ish.

I have been hiding myself away from you guys again.  This time because I did something “bad”, and got in trouble at work… and I know myself, and I love to confess things, so I had to hideaway until I was sure I wouldn’t blab everything.

So, yeah… I’m on “vacation”.  Tomorrow marks two weeks.  Haven’t heard an update in a while, and don’t really know where this will end up… and yet, I’m sorta okay with it.  This break has given me time to think about things… and realize that it’s time for a change.  And I’m hoping for a big change!

I’ve started applying to photography companies.  I’m ready to make my dream job a reality. 

Let’s see if this works….

Hope the start of your Spring is more Spring-ier than mine!  :o)

Way to fall, snow.  You big jerk.

…to say Hello!! 

Life is…. the usual. 

Work is wretched stressful right now with this new executive director who is driving us all nuts.

I started my day today by having my power steering go out (among other things) and having to get towed.

But the love life is…. amazing!

I was worried for a bit that it wasn’t going to work out, but I have, somehow, fallen in love all over again.  We had a big debate the other night on a topic, and then talked about it afterwards… and the following day I got super mad at him about something, and then we talked about it… and since then, I’ve gotten butterflies again when I think about him.  Aww…. ;)

Hope you guys are all doing well!  Miss you!