Desperately Seeking... Normal

I got offered another job!!

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 17:20:00 -0400

Woot!!

This one is photographing local weddings for a national company.

How stoked am I?! :)

Now, if I can get just one more company to sign me to help with the financial situation, this will be so awesome…

I got offered a job!

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 09:43:43 -0400

Yay! :)

I will be photographing newborns in the hospital. It’s very part-time for now, but sounds like there will be a chance it will become more steady as time goes on….

T.T.

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 13:42:50 -0400

1.) I’m supposed to be packing right now. It’s not working. I hate packing so, so much. I’m sure this will not be the last you guys will hear of this.

2.) Had another phone interview today for a photography company, and am meeting the phone interviewer from last week in-person tomorrow. Things may actually be falling into place! We’ll see.

3.) While I am super thankful for the interviews, it would be hella easier to get my packing done if I only had to worry about one anxiety-producing activity at a time.

Guys...

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 08:49:13 -0400

…I really hate packing…

Know what I like? Procrastinating.

Summary of me right now...

Thu, 18 Apr 2013 18:54:29 -0400

Yesterday was a really good day. Had a phone interview with a photography company that photographs newborns in hospitals and does family life photography. I think it went pretty well. She complimented me on my writing skills, said I had a great resume, and told me I definitely have an eye for photography. She’s supposed to email me with some dates so we can meet in person.

I also had another photography company contact me and let me know that I did not yet have enough experience to work for them, but the lady who emailed me told me I had a really nice eye for photography, and that if she needs a 2nd shooter she may call me.

So, apparently I don’t suck.

Forward to today. I was supposed to have another phone interview for a wedding photography company at 10am. They never called. At 11am, I emailed them. Still haven’t heard back. Emailed the lady from the first phone interview about dates for meeting up. Still haven’t heard back from her either.

I get a text in the afternoon from an ex-coworker informing me that my ex-boss wasn’t at work today….which was awesome because today was the day I was supposed to go clean out my desk and get my personal things. Fortunately, that one actually worked out for the best in that my co-worker packed up all my stuff for me, and we’re meeting for lunch tomorrow. So, now I don’t have to go back to the building and deal with any emotions being there may bring up.

Went to the doctor this afternoon. My blood pressure was high. I told the nurse that didn’t surprise me. I’m one giant stress ball from all the worries about being unemployed, and having to pack.

I have to pack because I’m moving in with the boyfriend. What?! I am mostly super-stoked about this…

Words of wisdom, anyone? :o)

It's official...

Sun, 14 Apr 2013 12:22:00 -0400

…I’m no longer employed.

On the one hand, I’m totally relieved to not be working there anymore and for it to not have to be my decision… because I don’t quit easily when it comes to work, even when it’s for the best.

On the other hand, I feel like a total and utter failure, and feel so stupid that I put myself in the position to have this happen. (Hard on myself, much?)

It’s hard to be excited about the possibilities this holds when I’m stuck feeling like I don’t deserve to be happy…

Life. Ugh.

I say goodbye... I say hello...

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 14:47:00 -0400

So, I deleted my personal Facebook page for some personal reasons. I don’t really miss it that much. I may reactivate it someday… but with a much smaller friends list.

In the meantime, I made a Facbook page for my photography. Just trying to get the word out… Check it out if you’d like! And like it! And suggest it to others…specifically around the Michigan area… ;o)

facebook.com/ForThisMomentPhotography

Change is...

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 21:57:58 -0400

…good-ish.

I have been hiding myself away from you guys again. This time because I did something “bad”, and got in trouble at work… and I know myself, and I love to confess things, so I had to hideaway until I was sure I wouldn’t blab everything.

So, yeah… I’m on “vacation”. Tomorrow marks two weeks. Haven’t heard an update in a while, and don’t really know where this will end up… and yet, I’m sorta okay with it. This break has given me time to think about things… and realize that it’s time for a change. And I’m hoping for a big change!

I’ve started applying to photography companies. I’m ready to make my dream job a reality.

Let’s see if this works….

Happy Spring!!

Wed, 20 Mar 2013 18:06:49 -0400

Hope the start of your Spring is more Spring-ier than mine! :o)

Way to fall, snow. You big jerk.

Just stopping by...

Tue, 05 Mar 2013 22:39:57 -0500

…to say Hello!!

Life is…. the usual.

Work is wretched stressful right now with this new executive director who is driving us all nuts.

I started my day today by having my power steering go out (among other things) and having to get towed.

But the love life is…. amazing!

I was worried for a bit that it wasn’t going to work out, but I have, somehow, fallen in love all over again. We had a big debate the other night on a topic, and then talked about it afterwards… and the following day I got super mad at him about something, and then we talked about it… and since then, I’ve gotten butterflies again when I think about him. Aww…. ;)

Hope you guys are all doing well! Miss you!

I Love Mondays...

Mon, 28 Jan 2013 11:53:00 -0500

…when I get a text at 6:45am saying that we’re officially closed for the day.

Snow day!! Woohoo!! :)

Spam Email of the Day:

Sun, 20 Jan 2013 20:26:33 -0500

Subject:

Are you tired of tiresome rendezvous instead of passionate bang?‏

So am I but with this site I’m having sex with 10 different chicks a month.
Come and try out for yourself and you’ll see how many
hot rosebuds search for sex while their hubby is out.
The site is just for people like us
who are tired of looking at the strange faces and just seek for bang.

I’m totally intrigued….. for the not bang.

Normal?

Wed, 16 Jan 2013 21:14:53 -0500

I don’t know if I am attempting to sabotage my relationship, or if the depression of the winter months is just getting to me, or if I’m still super messed up from that guy who played me and made me look dumb (which happened around this time of year), or what……………. but I am super paranoid that my boyfriend is going to break up with me. Or he’s cheating on me. Or he’s found someone better.

Do I really think he’s cheating on me? No. He’s almost always with me. There are no secret phone calls. No giddy texting when we’re together. No signs of that.

And, I think if he were going to break up with me, he’d just do it already.

So, I have to stop this. I’m almost to the point of obsessing over it… and I have to stop. I need to be my fun, smiley self, and leave the worrying behind.

I think I just really miss the way it was the first couple of months. The excitement over just being able to talk to me on the phone. The big smile when I’d walk through the door. The talks about what he wanted to do with our future.

Tonight, as we talked on the phone, I asked him when he wanted me to come back over. His response was to ask me when I wanted to come over. And to tell me that I had a key. Nothing wrong with that answer…. Except that I’m weeping over the fact that he didn’t say, “Tonight. Right now.”

Somebody tell me that this is normal, please. That, after eight months, some of the cuteness fades… and that’s okay. Please?

Junk Email of the Day:

Sun, 06 Jan 2013 20:26:37 -0500

Subject:

Me and my best roommate by the sea-side playing little mermaids‏

Message:

Hello, stallion! The weather was dull and gloomy yesterday,
and many dudes spent their weekend at home frying sausages in their gardens.
But my bad roommate and I went to the beach for having fun in the wash waves.
The beach was totally desolate, that is why we made a wonderful bare skin photoset of two Little mermaids.
I have just uploaded best pics for you here!
Visit my profile and contact me online in a chat – we shall talk about some piquant points.

I thought I was pretty hip with the sexual innuendos, but I may need you guys to explain to me exactly what “frying sausages in their gardens” means. Maybe I’ll Urban Dictionary it. ;)

I'm thinking about...

Wed, 02 Jan 2013 19:06:31 -0500

…changing the theme of my blog…

…because the subjects of my spam emails are just so ridiculous, that they always make me laugh, and I feel like they need to be shared.

Example:

Hi, mighty cowboy. I am expecting to meet you online‏

If I ever need a pick-up line in the future, I think this might be it.

Hey, 7-month anniversary with my awesome boyfriend...

Mon, 17 Dec 2012 20:55:28 -0500

…how YOU doing?

Awesome! That’s how it’s doing! ;o)

Giddiness erupts…

In life outside of my world……… Hope December is finding you all well!

Just like old times...

Sat, 08 Dec 2012 10:57:49 -0500

…I’m supposed to be busy doing stuff this morning… but, once again, tumblr has sucked me in….

Just thought I’d pop on and share a quick online dating story. Not that I’m doing any online dating at the moment because Match actually has seemed to have proven itself for once… but, none the less, online dating stories are still happening.

So, about a month or so ago, I’m sitting next to my boyfriend, at his place, checking my email. I see an email that I just know is from a Match guy. I read it, and it says something to the effect of, “hey where’s those daily sexy pics I used to get?” Only, with even less proper grammar. (I can’t tell you exactly what it said because I showed it to Mike, and he was half joking and half seriously like, “Are you cheating on me?” Sometimes I can’t read his fake indignation. So, I deleted the email real quick… and now it’s gone. And blocked the email address.)

Anyways………. What?! Nooooo….. That NEVER happened. What is wrong with these guys?!

Curiosity got the best of me, and I looked up the email address to find out who sent it. And I realized it was this guy, who has no email etiquette whatsoever. To add to my last post about him, our emails ended like this:

Me: (I can’t help but try to be nice.) ”Well, I didn’t mean that my weekends are booked with dates…. just with my busy life. :o) And I will let you know if things ever work out. Best of luck to you!!”

Him: “That fine I only paid to use this to talk to but I wasn’t really look for nebody but good luck if ur interested. N being friends I would like that.”

LOL!! What?!

So, it's been like two months...

Sat, 17 Nov 2012 09:22:03 -0500

…since I last stopped by to visit you guys. Sorry for being an asshole. Wonder how many followers I have left? I should check that… maybe….

Anyways…

I have a horrific online dating story to tell you all, but I only have time for one story today, and that one will have to wait…

…because today is my 6-month anniversary with the boyfriend, and I’d rather talk about that!! :o)

However, sticking with my roots of this being a blog about my adventures in online dating, I thought I’d share with you the first email I ever got from now-boyfriend.

Hi there W******
Your smile is electric :)

And that was it. Yup. That’s what did it for me. It’s okay, I’m a little embarrassed for myself.

But hey, sometimes you just get a feeling about something and you gotta’ give things a chance. And I am so glad I did! So, for any of my online dating followers, here’s my advice…. Go with your gut. What worked for me [completely giving up and resigning myself to the fact that I was going to be alone forever and needed to be okay with that] may not work for you. Just don’t settle! But how will you know? You’ll just know. Things will click, and you’ll say, “Ohhhh…. I get it.”

Hope life is going well for you guys!! Think of you often…

I may have failed to...

Wed, 26 Sep 2012 19:50:24 -0400

…~~complain to yet another social outlet and~~ tell you all that I have poison ivy. Yes. For three weeks now. And it just keeps spreading. I’ve been on steroids for over a week now. And it is still spreading. It just keeps on creeping north, and I’m afraid it’s headed for my face. I got a double shot of steroids today at the doc and another round of steroids. Let me tell you, they suck. I started off all draggy and tired, and now I’m all annoyed. ’Roid rage comin’ right up.

And, wow… it said “increased appetite” was a side effect… but, whoa. You should see the food I’m packing away. Last night, I made this big chicken breast, and pretty much half a box of noodles. I put half of the meal away as leftovers. Except, when I got done eating my share, I wasn’t even near full. So, I ate the rest. So far this evening, I’ve eaten half a take-out container of hummus and chicken, plus bread and garlic sauce; a giant hot dog, sundae and soda from the Sam’s Club food court; 4 Oreos; and some candy corn…. and I’m not even full yet.

Whoa.

Thanks for the birthday love!!

Thu, 23 Aug 2012 22:06:54 -0400

You guys have got to be some of the greatest people on the planet!

And that’s legit!